Last Night

Jan 19, 2007 2:27 AM

Last night I thought about you and everything we used to be. I laughed.
It was so damn funny the way you were dying...dying in my mind, dying in my heart!
But then, I felt a tear falling down my face. I wasn't laughing anymore...
I realized that I laugh to hide my tears. I smile so I don't face my fears.
Some people say I have to face it but...why? I'm just a child!

Last night I saw you...I fucked you up, I made you scream till your throat hurt and I killed you!
Then, I woke up screaming. It was just a dream. But it seemed so real... I didn't want to wake up, I wanted to do to you just the same you did to me!
I wanted to have the smile I had in my dream.

Last night I realized today I waste...

btw, I luv you***<3 (feb 12, 2007)

All my life, I always give up
But this time I won't let it happen.
Today I'll try,
Today I'll achieve what I wanted all my life - you!

I wish I could understand...
Why are you this way?
Why is so hard to tell me how you feel?
Don't go away, stay with me.

Seventeen forever

You are young and so am I.
And this is wrong but who am I to judge.
I feel like heaven when we touch.
I guess for me this is enough.

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right.
You won't be seventeen forever,
And we can get away with this tonight.

You are young and I am scared.
You're wise beyond your years but I don't care.
And I can feel your heartbeat,
You know exactly where to take me.

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right.
You won't be seventeen forever,
And we can get away with this tonight.

"Will you remember me?"
You ask me as I leave.
Remember what I said,
"Oh how could I, oh how could I forget?"

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right.
You won't be seventeen forever,
And we can get away with this tonight.

by Metro Station

The Boy Who Wanted to Be a Real Puppet

So many years ago, many more than I'd
Even care to bear in my mind
From the darkest of all places I found you

All the limbs in their right places
And a heart made of real gold
Sell me your little doll, oh sir, I ask you kind

Every night I returned to watch them
The master and the puppet in the show
He said: "Oh, no, I cannot sell him...
Priceless he is, masterpiece of mine"

Please, sell me your puppet, sir
Name your price, oh please,
Whatever you may ask,
Tenfold the price I pay

"Did I not make it clear?
This debate is over
I will never part from this puppet, my son..."

With hungry eyes I followed them all night
The blind master and the puppet he had made
"No, sir, to sell is not my will!"
The doll is mine, even if I have to kill...

So it shall be... if this is what it takes
"Greed is truly blinder than me..."
"Heart of gold is what you wish for?"
"So, this little boy... wants to be... a puppet, for real..."

So I have the golden heart
Now only needing the voice of the master
Never feel hunger, never grow older
My dream was to be a star in a real puppet show

It's so hard to remember my life
The times before the show
Can I ever cut off the strings?
"Take a bow, now dance and sing..." (Sing!)

Would you turn me to a child again?
"No, never, I am your Guide"
You can see a small grin on the face
Of the master, when the puppet's in his place

Be careful what you wish for
Wishes might come alive
The twines are pulling me every day and night...
The show, the glitter and all the fame
I'd give away for a life
Some things can end with a word, they say
This only ends with a sharp knife (Knife!)

by Sonata Arctica