Last Night

Jan 19, 2007 2:27 AM

Last night I thought about you and everything we used to be. I laughed.
It was so damn funny the way you were dying...dying in my mind, dying in my heart!
But then, I felt a tear falling down my face. I wasn't laughing anymore...
I realized that I laugh to hide my tears. I smile so I don't face my fears.
Some people say I have to face it but...why? I'm just a child!

Last night I saw you...I fucked you up, I made you scream till your throat hurt and I killed you!
Then, I woke up screaming. It was just a dream. But it seemed so real... I didn't want to wake up, I wanted to do to you just the same you did to me!
I wanted to have the smile I had in my dream.

Last night I realized today I waste...